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BBT

2006-07-21T14:54:00.000+08:00

BBT = Batam B'day treat

Tks to dear hubby --another getaway gift he presented to me:D. Once again, 4 of us rolled in to Harbour Front on the 15th July 2006 @ 2 pm and reach Harris Resort at 3pm.

The trip was hot but a sweet one. I would say Batam full with polite ppl in terms of service.

They r even polite with their own ppl...No wonder guys luv to go Batam n be "enticed" by the ppl's beauty. kekeke..

Well, this time birthday treat wasnt much of thrills to be filled..only the "shrills" of my beloved daughters n hubby;)

Anyway, when the clock struck 12 midnight, my hubby start singing then my twins join in. Now they can sing much clearer comparing last yr.

I was elated n blessed having them around me.

On the B-day itself, all my bros smsed Birthday wishes.

Yes, I already officially turn 29 yrs old. When? On 16th July 2006.

This yr is a solemn one for me.

It seem I no longer harbour any presents from anyone. Except for hubby who kept giving me few likeable things to cheer me up. Tks dear:)

I know.Hubby knows.Family know. Allah knows.

Yes...the gift I'm seeking for is something BIG n PRICELESS.

N I really pray to Allah he will hear my prayers pls.

---Free to Blog --

2006-07-10T15:05:00.000+08:00

Dear frens,

I'm back.Back from where? Still at SG n working at the same place. BUT I finally be "FREE" from all the stringent access.

Praise to Allah--I am able to access all research areas easily.

Blogging is one of its opening gates ...hohohoho...

Anyway, WORLD CUP was put on end this 5am in the morning. ITALY won! Though I am not a freaky fan of their team, still BIG congrats to ITALY...YEHH!!!

Pity tt France lost at a close call. Well, tt's competition all about:)

Lots of things happen to me throughout these months. All I seek now for Allah's guide towards a better future, peace and solace in my life. Amin:)

Block @ work

2006-02-24T12:16:00.000+08:00

Where was I e past few weeks?
Ans: In SG - workplace-blocked MSN and blogspot :(
Solution - Gmail/Gtalk => less chat , no chance to blog.

Hee.....above was the answers for my M.I.A status.

Here I am blogging from home..

Being 'blocked' at work, make the whole colleagues quite paranoid. We just find having MSN at time really make us to email some attachements lesser. We can just transfer files. Best part we can still talk "privately" in the office. So where we go, go to Gmail, n just chat among few of us for work urgencies. Yup!! Tt's how pathetic we are. Nevetheles, work is work *yawn*.

I got Sun classes till mid April. Monash unit is coming in March. So stress to prepare degree classes. Twinnies are fine n chirpy.

What else? Oh ya, 2 weeks staying n taking care my twins were fabuloso. Enjoy every minute n moment. My little girls are growing day by day. How I wish to be a full-time cum freelance staff *sigh*. Oh ya, we went zoo and Science Centre. Cool places esp Science Centre. The twins throughly enjoyed the 'water works'. We were there from 3300 till 9pm. heheh..

This coming weekend, perhaps there's family gathering. Hope it will be fun one. Enjoy your weekend peeps..............

Renung sejenak..

2006-01-06T11:23:00.000+08:00

Hari raya Haji akan tiba tak lama lagi. Ia membawa erti keinsafan dan pengorbanan pada waktu umat Islam mengerjakan Haji. Pada sesiapa yg dah pernah pergi Mekkah, pasti merasakan kesyahduan dan ingin kembali ke sana. I was bloghopping earlier n I saw one blogger spoke of her dad had gone to Haj this yr. Her hearfelt sadness was felt n I remembered how I felt when Dad went Haj for a month 7 or 8 yrs ago.

My dad went there few yrs after my mum passed away. I remember how sad I was seeing him going all alone. When I sent him, I cried as he bid his farewell to us. At tt time, I really felt I was anak yatim piatu. But more worse, every time if he called home , he will sound happy but end note of his voice, i can hear he missed us especially me(Maklum sorang anak pompuan). I always try to sound cheerful every time he called. But I cried after putting down the phone.

U know as Asian family , the sentence "i luv u" is sacred to be said out loud. SO I took the opportunity, to sms him saying how much we missed him n luv him when he's not around. I think tt made my dad feel touch when he saw the smses.

Anyway, when he reached airport, I hugged him n cried seeing him so skinny. My dad came back batuk2. Since tt time I was still doing my uni, I stayed home when he was sick. Dont mind skipped the class just to take care of him. Once he was well, I resumed to my school routine.

He always feel so sebak whenever he told us his journey over there. Some unique experience that he must had which he might never tell us at all. Anyway, a year later, my dad met my step-mum whom he known her in the same group of Haj.

Alhamdulillah, they are blissful married for around 5 or 6 yrs already. How time flies..I am married with 2 girls. Seeing my dad still with me is a bless. All I pray to Allah tt he is always healthy n happy.

Really seek his Rahmat to make me the least worry to my dad. Amin.

new yr==> new hope

2006-01-04T17:25:00.000+08:00

2.0.0.6 are new numbers came at the strike of midnight. Yes..it's the new year.

Well, this yr wasnt any big bash to welcome new year.Well, I'm just enjoying the peacefulness with my hubby n twins. But I am reek with bags of hope. Only Allah knows what it is.

There's one big hope that I am pinning for... His Grace for good things in this coming year. Amin.

Tks Allah for giving me ur Rahmat despite the happenings in 2005.

But I'm seeking to you, Ya Allah, turunkan less bala di dunia ini walaupun tanda2 akhir zaman sudah bermula. Amin.

surprise from hubby

2005-12-17T11:12:00.000+08:00

Not sure if it's a really a surprise or is the "whinings" from me.. but according to my dear hubbby he has planned long time back but just ignore all my nonsense. SO here is the ala hindi movie story:

I've been "whining" the past few days cos no suprise from him this entire yr. My hubby may not be the most romantic person as far I know. But he will definitely surprise me few times in a yr, just to spark things between us. Like I did the same for him.I am not a materialistic person..cos if I am I shouldnt marry him.:P

From the days of "patology" till marriage, he can just come up n surprise me small things like strawberries or even cook my favourite dish. Since we r married, luv letter seem to be diminished. He prefer to show more on luv affections(**winks**).

So when the past few days, my "whining" was ignored by him..I just dont bother to think abt it. Even after so many yrs, I guess I still havent skilled his "ignorant" behaviour.

Cos last evening, he surprised me with a bouquet of daisy flowers

and a box of my favourite chocolate.

That caught me by surprise. Not only I enjoyed the chocolates, so does the giver and my twins. hehehe..... I really thank Allah for His blessing me with such luv from hubby n family.

And I seek all the more of his Grace to guide me as a better mum/wife/daughter plus good things ahead of the coming yr. Amin.

Special note to my dear hubby : Tks for ur luv tt u showed me all these yrs. May Allah bless u to be a good husband/dad/son always. Amin:)

Syawal is over..

2005-12-08T15:46:00.000+08:00

Alhamdulillah..kita semua dapat menyambut Syawal yg baru berlalu dengan penuh kesyukuran. This yr for the first time, hubby and I hosted a mini Raya gathering two weeks ago. Just some old frens n close colleagues. We didnt throw a big bash but more humble food arrangement in our abode.

And it was a success! Both hubby and I were thankful and appreciate the presence of our frens who came. Imagine meeting some of my frens who have parted for 8 yrs. Tt was a good meet up. So what did we prepare? Actually, my maid is the CHIEF cook of the day.
Dishes:
(a) Kway teow seafood soup with power chilli
(b) Seafood fried rice
(c) Bak wan(vege fritters)
(d) Fried chicken wings
(e) cocktail
(f) Syrup lemonade

I helped her with all the ingredients except for the chicken wings (solely by urs truly). But we work as a team as in the house only got hubby, me n maid. No elders to help us out. Except BIG thank you to my third bro, Bahri n SIL Ayu who lend me the buffet trays. And also to Anjang and kakak who helped us to do the final cleanups in our abode.

I still yet to upload the pix as my pc is down at the moment. To all frens who are awaiting for the pix, apologies for the delay. Will try my best to upload the pix soon and I will email u guys once the pix uploaded.

News alert:

Hubby and I would like to express our hearfelt congrats to our ADIK- Taufiq. He has become a father to a son name Elfian Haikel(hope we get it right;). He was born yesterday at 415 am. Praise to Allah for this newborn arrival:)

Save..save..

2005-11-17T10:45:00.000+08:00

The word S.A.V.E has been settling in my mind. It's not as if I never SAVE at all. We did -- but at times it's tough cos having twins isnt easy esp we are first time parents with double joy at one go. Standad living in SG is too high.

Of cos, all these while we cut down lots of our own expenses just to cater more to our twins. Still,I just find tt both my hubby and mine salaries aint enough to cater more for my twins' incentives. Education in SG so expensive. Yes, we have also save up some in CDAC n educational insurance ..still when u really calculate one by one ..it's really very EX. And I wonder if the govt never give any further incentives for multiples. All I got is just BB Bonus which is only for my second child tt already applied for parents whether they got multiples or single kids.

We went to view some playgroup programmes at few schools as my twins already 2 yrs old. But mak datuk, most schools charge mahal2 seh. All over 100++ some even almost 300. I really wonder whymost S'poreans parents are becoming more kiasu and making kids as young as 18 mths to start education.Most schools have their pre-nursery daily. Did the pressure from the society resulted to this?

Of cos, the benefits u can reap is tt ur child become more cergas and pandai. Me n hubby contemplated to send them to playgroup. Perhaps, we can afford secara montly tapi I was just thinking then how abt $$ for their nursery onwards. We need to save more so tt we can reap the MAX from the govt CDAC account. Bila lagi nak rasa duit govt?

Spoke to my father, frens n elder cusin (who good in early childhood education). They advised us to think abt it carefully. My elder cusin do encourage us to send but if we r thinking to save more on their education financing then she can guide us how to train and prepare the twins for nursery.

Come to think of it, dulu2 kita semua start sekolah dari kindergarten. What's e results?Pandai juga kan ada dah bergaji besar dan dah bergelar siswazah. Why we so concern on early education in SG? R we parents just work just to ask someone to teach ur kids and not yourself. When I really discuss with my hubby, sometimes I feel myself tt I am a lecturer but cant I really teach my kids at this young age.

I think maybe kita ni terlampau ikutkan era masa dan society demands which sometimes tu memang over. I got 3 other elder braders and they are all more stablised income ppl.But still, their perception of focusing start more or kindergarten.

Why oh why we parents face this pressure? Me n hubby now still sitting on the fence on putting the twins to playgroup ke tak. Perhaps we going to meet our elder cusin n view her tips on training my toddlers first. Bukan me n hubby selfish or too poor but we aint born n breed by riches parents. We dont even have a job tt earn 5-figures amt. So we got to be more careful to think the next few yrs education $$ for our twins.

No wonder, my dad never encourage me to bear kids in 5 to 6 yrs time. Cant blame my dad has been in insurance line for yrs. He told me to provide good life for the twins , hubby and I should stay cool on having more kids. We do agree with him cos it's really expensive having children in SG. Memang rezeki ini kehendak Allah. But we r just not ready to go for few more kids.For now, I really looking for new job. Need to get out from this place which I've stuck for 5 yrs.

Dont believe tt graduate like me cant earn more outside this place. This place pay me nimbles. Been here due to the 4 yrs bond. Been searching for job for a yr already.Really need to have better pay so that I can S.A.V.E.

BGR aniverssary;)

2005-11-10T11:55:00.000+08:00

Today's day n mth really remind me of the wonderful dating yrs I had with my husband. 11yrs ago which is 10.11.1994, my hubby @ tt time a boy fren "sound" me to become his steady.

I was only 17 yrs old n my 'O' level exams around the corner. He was 19 yrs old - doin his 1st yr poly. Tt really caught me by surprise but I can say "Yes" after few minutes of thinking (dont know what e hell I was thinking *lol*).

At tt time, to last till marriage never occur in my mind..heheh. U'll be surprise my bf aka hubby propose to me after a year of relationship @ Sentosa beach (cam feeling romatik ;)). This time I cant even say "YES" immediately. I told him if ada jodoh adalah KITA..ceh cam sound mature tt time (*lol*).

But throughout the 9 yrs of going "steady", I would say we were more like frens rather than "mushy"2 bf-gf. I can c how some of e couples in the group so lurvy durvy. He n I still go out with other ppl ..of cos , he's not really keen knowing other girls except for me ..hohoh.We dont really share our thoughts as couple until few yrs later. Then when my bf aka hubby went to NS , I realise how much I luv him even at time I might choose another nice guy...heheheh..Menggatal..hohoho.

Then as we decided to go alam pertunangan, tt was e greatest challenge in my life. Question kept pop :" Is he the ONE?". Tak ke cam siak aku tt time.Plus all the family pressures n new flat we bought at the same time. Can crack my whole body system..isk...isk.

Anyway, how time flies..we have harboured our luv which is having luvliest twins. Can have more kids is it , hubby? Hmmm..still deep in thoughts..*winks*. Anyway, today really marks how long u've know me dear. But do u really know me? --jus kidding ;)

Any surprise for me tonight???I guess not cos u on night shift today.*damn* . Anyway, it's k .I'll wait for our 3rd yr wedding anniversary;)

Eid Mubarak

2005-11-02T10:38:00.000+08:00

Khas untuk semua,

Kami menyusun sepuluh jari memohon ampun dan maaf selama ini. Semoga Syawal yg akan tiba nanti, kita dapat menyambut dengan penuh kesyukuran dan keikhlasan.

Semoga kita dapat berjumpa Ramadhan yg akan datang . InsyaAllah.

K enjoy ur raya n have fun.

Salam sayang,
FhirIta & Twins (Nurafifah & Nurafiqah)

What's hepin ?

2005-10-19T14:44:00.000+08:00

The wee hrs of early part of the day was horrendous at home. My twins are becoming naughtier. Hubby n I were feeling exhausted esp me as I was on aft shift. Both twins seem to be tired but wide awake.So I told them "Mama on for u Barney.Then go to sleep once finish".Norm they did tt cos too sleepy whilst watching TV.

Suddenly around 2 am, adik was crying .Rupa-rupanya, she n akak had played with my hot-balm n also my Clarins toner. Adik terkena the heat from the balm, so she cried. Then akak with her naughty look show her innocent face. I was so furious. My hubby so mad at them tt he gave them both a tight slap on the face.

Apa lagi meraung lah tengah2 malam --2++ am. My whole bottle of Clarins toner was being poured mercilessly. Yg meraung maknya lah cos I just bought tt toner 2 mths ago. Suppose to last me for 6 mths. Haiz..apa nak jadi??

Anyway, while trying to simmer them n put them to sleep, I was nagging at them in angry tone. They kept sobbing cos I know they understand. Then I calm n sooth them to sleep. Hubby n I cant sleep thru as we were wide awake. I think we slept almost 3am. Alarm rings at 5am...woke up for sahur like zombies.Once perform Subuh, hubby n I flat on the bed. Had a hard time to go to work. N I lost my mood to work when I step in office. Tks to my twins, I went to Metro Orchard to cheer myself up n bought a new Clarins toner.There goes my $$ --fly..fly..

Any remedies to discipline my twins better? I just got to find innovative ways to improve on their behaviour...*Mummy cracking her brains now ;) *

2nd yr 4 twins

2005-10-10T10:55:00.000+08:00

4th Ramadhan 1424H - 30/10/03 was a historic date of my life. I still remember throughout the whole night I cant sleep cos the twins inside my tummy were "angry" as I stop eating12 hrs before the operation. During the sahur time, I woke up to accompany hubby to eat n we solat subuh jemaah . I still remember how I cried n seek my hubby's forgiveness after subuh prayers. At tt time, I was just totally deem myself to Allah as I know only He knows what will be the next thing for me. At 8am, I was already at KKH n by 9am I was warded first. At tt time, it was still SARS period. My hubby cant even accompany me to the ward. I bid my last farewell to him before I was pushed to the ward. From far, I can c he looked very calm as he smiled at me. My dad was beside him but trying to put a brave front . I know both of them were feeling sad.

At 1030am, I was pushed to the operation theatre. In there, the nurses made me feel comfortable. The room was really cold as ice. And the anaesthetist gave me a good epidural jab. I was awake throughout the caesar.My gynae came n ready to cut me. I was numb for the lower part of my body.I can feel the hard "shake" before she bring my first twin out. Few seconds, I heard her first cry. Then another "shake" was felt n my second twin was out. She cried immediately when she was out. I guess she is terribly hungry. I gave them my first kiss on their forehead. Both had their eyes quite wide open. Their birth time is almost 11am with a min difference. N alhamdulillah my condition was stabilised after the operation was over. My gynae said I was a strong woman (cam betul aje heheh tapi syukur alhamdulilah;)).

So syukur to Allah, they have reached 2nd yr on 4th Ramadhan 1426. Normally, we give them 2 b'day celebrations-4th Ramadhan n 30/10. Of cos, it doesnt matter if it wasnt a big bash--more important we r still alive to c the twins growing brighter n stronger. May Allah always bless them to be good children to us.- Amin.

Ramadhan arriving soon..

2005-09-26T11:35:00.003+08:00

How time flies..By early next week, all Muslims are rejoice as the holy month Ramadhan is coming. I am feeling extra excited this Ramadhan cos I just cant wait to feel the sense of tranquility n peaceful in tt month. I just pray tt I can go thru whatever cabaran yg akan menjelma sewaktu berpuasa.

All I pray with the month of Ramadhan,is the beginning of having myself to be more committed to Him n things will turn out for the better..InsyaAllah.

The recent weekend was quite tiring for me. Initially, I was thinking maybe the twins baju kurung will just wait till bazaar @ Geylang. Then last Sat, hubby asked me if we want to go JB n look at Angsana. So off we go just the 2 of us went there n scout for the baju raya.

We were there for almost 4 hrs before we set back SG.But alhamdulilah, we manage to get the baju kurung for the twins n my hubby. Mine has been sent for tailored as I got the kain for b'day gift. Due to my kain, the color of this yr Raya is magenta cum purple. I still feel a twinge of unhappiness on the purchases for my twins as I didnt manage to get exactly the same pattern of the baju...for 3 times I went around the area. And it's either we get the one we like but no size. Or when there is a pair available, the baju kurung is not in good condition. SO end up, hubby bought for them same color but diff pattern.

Hubby said it's ok , this raya we have diff patterns. But I guess as a mum, I always like to c them wearing alike. The twins know how to choose their clothings. So tt's why I tried to buy exactly the same most of the time. Unless cant be avoided, we buy diff pattern but same color. U wont believe, there's few instances, we bought diff colors n they kinda "fighting" who should wear which dress.

Haiz ..smart kids nowadays. Yesterday, my twins have new "slang" to say.My elder twin said with pelat2--"Hanya di Suria". Then my younger twin will hit her stomach for the sound n shout "Aik"--n she laugh happily.Made us laugh the whole day..

By 4th Ramadhan, my twins will be 2yrs old insyaAllah. Ever so grateful to Allah for taking care my twins during their growth all this while. May He always bless them with good health n behaviour -InsyaAllah. Aiyohh..mummy headache loh cos they getting naughtier and stubborn at times...kekeke...I guess kids will always be kids.It's ok for them to be naughty active asalkan jgn kurang ajar sudah ;)

Days of our Lives..

2005-09-18T21:25:00.000+08:00

Last weekend, my close gf had her engagement..I am so happy for her cos she has found her "soul" mate at last. Well soon, she's getting married early next year..and swoosh..be a great mother soon after tt ;)

Anyway, talking abt marriage--I would say it's a gamble. Cos upon the solemnized ceremony, u will think he is the "ONE" --heheh sound like Matrix movie. But when months goes on, things either remain enticing or ugly. Humans r not perfect so of cos both parties as a couple got to work to gether as a team. It's just like the game of Amazing Race. Perseverence, hard work and team commitment must be there..isk..isk i talked just like some kind professional freak..kekek.

I guess it's unfair when things got ugly , it's only expected to have one side to keep on improving for the marriage.Tt's totally shit isnt it?ehhee...One thing for sure--I guess if things got ugly in the marriage n both parties cant work--do get some professional or even parents help. But pls men out there, be more receptive on seeking third party advice.

I definitely believe tt communciation is vital in makes marriage works. As couple live under one roof, either party take things for granted. Hence, I guess we got to work hard to make the marrige all time tinkles.

Hmm..so would I say I have a perfect marriage life? Well, I guess all marriage has its ups and downs. But one thing for sure, I'm thankful to Allah tt both of us are able to adapt and still doing continous learning in our marriage. And one thing- our love still in the air .. May Allah bless us always:)

Bz Aug..

2005-08-29T16:00:00.000+08:00

I've been busy since the last entry of my blog. Work had been and still very 'ugly'. August is a very busy month the entire IT academic dept. We r "down" with ppl due to sick or some unexpected event occured to them.

Well, last week was my turn of getting sick not just me but the WHOLE family. I suppose to have a busy schedule last week. But by Tues's night, I was down with flu virus which resulted me to have chest pains. I got a day MC from the doc cos @ tt time, I didnt have any fever except for chest pains n body feeling cold.

The moment I stepped home, my face was as white as sheet and I vommitted out whatever accumulated inside my intestine after swallowing the asthma and anitbiotic medicine. My dear hubby was very shocked seeing me vommit like a "fountain". Entire bedsheet covered by my vommit. My twins just looked bewildered.

Anyway, I can breathe better after tt and starts to have fever. I quickly sms to my supervisor regarding my MC as early Wed morning I have class. Luckily, I still have colleagues to stand in my class.

Never in my life I felt so helpless ..for tt Wed, I had no appetite to eat n cant walk or breathe properly. Poor hubby, he got to attend to me even though he himself was sick too n on MC. I think I slept almost the whole day for tt day.

My twins keep looking at me n wonder why mummy so sick. By Wed's night, I decided to apply leave for the next day cos I know my body is yet to be fit n not ready to teach.

Praise to Allah, I was better by the time hubby came back from work. Looking forward for my Fri's work. Then guess what..my elder twin start to vommit suddenly. Not one or two time, but many..many times. She ate something n she vommitted. Then followed by my younger twin..but she's smarter.She didnt want to vommit too much so she refused to eat.

By wee hrs of Thurs night, hubby n I thought their condition have improved as they stopped vommit but got a bit of diarrhoea. But the next morning, both twins looked so weak. Kakak start to vommit again.

What to do...zoom we went to KKH A&E. My dad sent us there n during the journey, kakak vommitted 2 times in dad's cab. The whole cab being surrounded by the wonderful "perfume".

Upon reaching KKH, kakak had fever whereas adik was ok. Less than 10 minutes, we were in the doctor's room. Straight away, he put "bullet" medicine inside each of the twins' anus as the twins keep vommitting.

Doc's verdict : "Food posioning due to virus from the air entering into the food at home". My hubby & I looked at each other as we found it weird. The twins were put for 2 hrs observation. After an hr, each of them was fed with glucose water for every 20 min. Doc said if their condition no improve==> warded. I was praying deep inside my heart.

By the time observation was over, both looked more cheerful. So we were saved from being "stranded" @ KKH.

Over the weekend, we didnt go out as the twins still on & off active. Perhaps their bodies still "recharging" and still "discharging" the poison..

Well, I must say Aug has been the most challenging month for us. May Allah bless us with strength for the coming months.Amin;)

Baby gender..

2005-08-05T09:57:00.000+08:00

It's been quite some time since I blog. Too tired to go in and post new updates.

Anyway, this week I've received newborns arrivals ..One is boy , another one is a girl. This set me to some thinking. I realise tt in this new modern era, I still find frens who prefer son as a first newborn.Hmmm..I wonder why? Somehow or rather , we still can find ppl who adopting "tradition " preference. I got a fren who mentioned to me tt she only want a son and nothing else. If it's a girl, she's sure her hubby will be unhappy. N she got to bear another kid which she doesnt intend to. Well, I would say poor her I guess.

No doubt, in SG , having more than one kid is an expensive investment.But to act biased on a bb gender for first newborn is just not right. To me, whether it's a boy or girl, as long the bb is healthy, Praise Almighty for this child. Cos there will be much sadness and agony when the bb is sick n has to go thru all kinds of medications and operations.

Frankly, whether son or daughter, it all depends the way he/she being brought up and attitude that he or she adopts when grow up. When you have a son, he is ur light n pillar to ur life when he is young n eligible. But the moment he has his own family, it will depends on the wife to remind him maintaining good relationship with his parents. Cos a son at times forgot to be more affectionate to his parents as he grows older n attend to his family. And as aged parents, u will feel tt ur son is ignoring ur emotional needs..cos when u old u become more sensitive.

As for a daughter, she may seems everytime daddy's girl when she's young. But the moment she enter adulthood n towards parenting, she become more sensitive n tactful on her parents' needs. And if she got good support from her hubby, she even can be a better daughter when u grow older. But no matter what, we know tt a daughter cant really forsake her parents despite whatever wrongdoings as she knows the feeling as a parent. Unless, she really "gone case", i got nothing to say.(*lol*)

So u c, does it really matter now whether it is a boy or girl? Well, it still up to a person to opt for. But i guess as human, we all God's creation so there's no need to be fussy on what He has given to us:)

Pix r uploaded..

2005-07-20T15:11:00.000+08:00

I've been busy ese few days..preparing classes.. Not anticipating next week as more night classes coming up..haiz--3 nights per week :(

Anyway, since I got some spare time, I've been upload all pix recent n personal pix on this site: http://dashe.multiply.com Feel free to view the available pix especially on the recent success of the short getaway..hehehhe..

Well, I got to rush for a deadline..been coughing like mad cow..lucky never transform to a raging bull (*lol*).If not dear n twins will suffer..kekeke..

K me got rush for marking.Geez--tomorrow the deadline *shucks*...toodles:)

A great gift from hubby n twins:)

2005-07-18T11:02:00.000+08:00

It has never occurred to me tt we goin to break e tradition on my b'day.Norm, my siblings were gather n we will just have fun eating n chatting.

But this time, hubby insisted tt we do something different--go a short break in Melaka ..with TWINS. Believe it or not-my hubby wanted all 4 of us to go for 4 hrs journey in a coach. NO maid presence.I was doubtful initially--fear tt the twins will get sick or throw tantrums while in e bus.

Well..surprise..surprise..they were in best behaviour for both going n return trip. Most of e time, they fell asleep as they woke up 630am in the morning. Tks to my hubby's stubborness, we brought 2 buggies along. Sounds like a hassle..but with all Allah's praise , we went thru the journey smoothly.

The twins got excited when we arrive in Melaka. They ran into e hotel room the moment we checked in. N enjoy all e baths in tt room due to the bathtub n good shower facilities. We didnt really go for much other places--most time we spent within the hotel vicinity. We took our sweet time to walk n entertain e twins for e rest of the Friday. Of cos, we end up in Mahkota Parade (most of the time)..cant escape to shop n in e end I bought 2 pair of shoes, 2 tops and 3 tudungs. Hubby n twins bought something too. The twins got their Barney toys n pillows :)

At midnight, my hubby n twins sang me "Happy B'day" song...e twins clapped happily. And on my b'day (which is Sat), we had a buffet breakfast n went around e town area sight seeing. By 130pm, we checked out n heading to Melaka Central. We arrived SG around 7++pm as we told e driver we were goin home straight from the first link. My dad fetched us n happy tt his cucus in good behaviour:)

Well, to note off my b'day, hubby bough few old movies CDs at Laser Flair..thinking tt we goin to have a movie marathon. End up--we dozed off only after first CD..l0l...

I guess this year bd gift is something special from hubby.N my twins what did they give? Lots of hugs n kisses for me n of cos , the love bonding we had during the trip :)

With this, a BIG tks to my dear for making me happy this yr. I didnt get flowers or cake but I get something tt $$ cant buy eventually..LOVE (*winks*)

p/s Will try to upload other pix soon--so look out for my updates

Happy Advanced B'day for me!!

2005-07-14T13:55:00.000+08:00

It's been almost 2 weeks since I pen my thoughts. Anyway, believe it or not, am turning 28 this Saturday..Boo hoo..sob..sob.. so fast time flies..But no worry, my hubby will be turning older in Dec..kekkeke..

So as at 16th July 2005 : I, Sherita, has been a mother of wonderful twins, being loved n cared by darling hubby, Md Fhirdaus (Clap..clap). I dont know what to describe the feelings for this coming b'day..happy, excited or what? Frankly, too much things happen in my life recently. It's yet to be over. But am praying tt Allah will be with me always.

One thing for sure , I feel myself tt being closer to Him-alhamdulilah:). Maybe I yet to be a good Muslim but definitely He never fail to forgive me n guide me always. I no longer anticipate big b'day bash anymore as I grow older..but on the note of kesyukuran,I am still here with my loving family n frens.

My only b'day wish is tt I pray tt I will be better Muslim, good mother to my twins n loving wife to my hubby..hehehe. N also pls guide and provide me the simple and ultimatum path to the mesh tt I've never wish upon. Amin..

So a Happy Advanced B'day to me ;)

Happy 21mths to Twinnies :)

2005-06-30T17:06:00.000+08:00

Alhamdulillah..Nurafifah & Nurafiqah have turn 21 mths today. 3 mts to become 2 yrs old. They have been good , nakal and cute bunch. Soon going to playgroup..in mean time their favourite show is "Barney"..:)

For 21 mts, they filled both mama n papa's life with happiness. No doubt, it brought challenge to mama n papa but still they r our precious darlings. We will trade nothing for them.

So here prayers from mama n papa.. "Ya Allah, kau sihatkan anak2 ku.Jadikan mereka anak2 yg solehah.Amin"

Waht a Bz July!!

2005-06-25T23:32:00.000+08:00

I just saw my July schedule earlier.Haiz...not looking forward sia. I think starting from first week, I got 2 nights classes. Then by final week of the mth, I got 3 nights. Hope tt my degree class is not on. If not I feel like dying.Plus my paperwork yet to finish.

Hmm--one thing hope, jus pray my mental stress will not be as excruciating as in June. I got 2 new diploma units to prepare. So tired...I guess other colleagues even worse. Ever since UWS uni joined us, more work for us...but at least Tk Allah our dept is aint as bad as business dept.

Every mth, always got ppl tender but no subtitute. Wonder if my department will be like tt one day..hmmm. Well, nothing affix in my mind now abt the coming mths. All i pray is that may the ending of 2005 will be a better for me afterall.

I know am getting older in mid July n it seems tt now to me b'days became like nothing special. Well, I guess what I am facing now is something tt I got to atone for the mistakes tt I did last time. What can I say..Allah tu maha Berkuasa..We got to terima qadak dan qadarnya. But I believe he is ever Forgiving..

Well..enough of prying my agony on a weekend night, got to sleep early.Going to JB to shop for their milk tomorrow.It's like a monthly routine. Tks to my dear dad after all:) k toodles all n sleep tight;)

Perjalanan seharian..

2005-06-23T14:46:00.000+08:00

This week has been a tiring week for me. I was having bad gastric on last Monday. Went to company doc and he ask me to rest at home. But then, I was thinking wasted for one day MC as it was already 12pm when I step out from the clinic.

Then on the next day, I went to my own doc n got MC as I was having sore throat n cough. Well, it doesnt cure me 100% as I'm still coughing n throat still itchy till today.

Yesterday was like a rollover emotions for me. Yet to settle e needfuls cos it's a cruel place out there. But I just pray I can get it done by tonight n by tomorrow it can be settled. May Allah help me..insyaAllah. Otherwise, perhaps it's written by HIM tt i have to souce alternative.

I am still settling my tutorial questions..hopefully I can finish by today. Feeling exhausted due to menses... Thus, I was listening to one of the syarahan at CeramahIslam..

There's one topic on ketenangan jiwa. It is really a bless to know how Allah kasihkan kita dan berikan laluan untuk kita mempunya hati yg tenang. Frankly, I cant denied tt it is tough to have ketenangan jiwa bila kita dilanda kesusahan, gundah gulana. Bila kita ni dengar syarahan sebegini, barulah kita tahu betapa besarnya nikmat Allah. It seems a bless to be a Muslim bila kita dengar syarahan sebegini. Otherwise, skeptically most of us (Muslims or non-Muslims)think tt superficially being a Muslim seem to be so much of restrictions.geezz..no hard feelings taken ;)

Well for now, I jus pray may Allah hear my/our prayers n berikan rahmat keatas hidupku dan cabaran yg diberikan. InsyaAllah:)

so bumPed..

2005-06-16T13:48:00.000+08:00

My dear twins have recovered n perky. They had been naughty n bullied papa last night.

My dear hubby had been a great support in my life...He let me sleep seeing tt I was totally exhausted. Be there for me whenever I'm down or happy..TO me, to wake up every morning knowing tt we'll be separated for a while, makes my heart feel sick..(*mushy pula-lol*)

I still not feeling too gd. Lack of sleep, improper meals as no appetite..etc.. Kena shoot by my supervisor --on having poor attendance. Otherwise, work quality wise seem to excellent. Attendance issue came abt as I got wisdom tooth surgery resulted in 5 days MC. Plus at times I take half-day or single day urgent leave due to my twins got sick.

To think tt the past 3 mts, I refrain taking MC due to the wisdom tooth incident.SO I took leave infact at times I took non-urgent leave when I got sick. My supervisor said she dont want management to think employing mothers r such a burden.

Well, I kinda bit pissed but I cant be bothered to argue cos they r not in my shoes. Basically, as a parent, if u have good support from ur parents or in-laws, then at least work disruption is lesser. But as for me, I am totally independent.In fact, e only person I depend is my maid. And now the twins r toddlers not some primary sch kids.

Of cos when both got sick, me n hubby at times even have to take leave.Cant totally depend on maid 100%.Unless really cant be helped, we called his mum (but we know she's not a helper at all--*winks*). Frankly, this company really dont have much compassionate ground for parenthood.

No wonder, we have so many unmarried ppl here or not thinking having kids *lol*. She told me we have heads who have their own kids (from other dept) but still work disruptions r not tt distinctive. Inside my heart, sure or not...hehhehe..

Wish am outta here but I have great colleagues n good head. Is just the management tt sucks --force the heads to be so "cold" towards staff on certain issues? Been here so long enough tt i am so immuned..heee....

Well, good praises for my work anyway..:) I just pray Allah always give strength to get thru day by day and may He relieve the worries for me soon ..InsyaAllah...

My darling twins

2005-06-14T11:35:00.000+08:00

Ifah n Iqah got sick today. Kesian anak mama.. I am on aft shift. Taken half-day aft cos need to bring the girls to doc. Later, my dear dad r helping us to send the kids to doc.

Manja anak2 mama..I also feel exhausted cos last night didnt really sleep as Adik keep coughing. Papa still sleeping after almost 20 hrs of work. Kesian papa...

I still coming back to class tonight cos it's e last lesson for this class. Wish I take MC today heeeeeeee...but so lazy to go doc. Tomorrow I pray to Allah , may He provides me the way to settle all the needful things I need to do. InsyaAllah..

Now goin to look take a peek at the twins again..toodles:)

Is it cloudy or raining ?

2005-06-08T15:35:00.000+08:00

It has been a beautiful Wednesday morning. Why? cos the weather is cool. Hubby n I overshot this am as we were so exhausted yesterday*Ya Allah, ampunlah dosa kami*. We slept late as twins "dozing time" is midnight.

I reached home almost 1030pm. Taught light lesson for my students. We had a chat towards the end of the lesson. My dear fren, Hannah , came down to meet me as it's been a long time she saw me. We had good chat during my break time.

After lunch, I am aiming to complete another 50% of my exam paper. Hopefully, I can accomplish tt today *grins*. Hubby seems happy tt he's having training at Ten Mile junction station today. Looks like more work for him --but any increment ?(better give more hints to tt "old" head- lol)

k then ciao;)

Inspirations ..pls come to me

2005-06-07T15:30:00.000+08:00

My oh my..it's exam papers setting again..I really fret when I've to do this @ work. Sometimes I just feel tt they jus dont want us to be relax..I mean how often we have spare time as now is marking period. Next week is Internal Board meeting..sian same old cyle of preparation.

I'm on aft shift today--very unhappy cos most colleagues r on morning shift. Trying to divert my boredness, worries, sleepiness n whatsover on creating an exam paper. But guess what waht..after an hour, I lacked of inspiration to set questions.

Even after Zuhur's prayers, I still feel sleepy n uninspired. I hate setting questions ..damn man. N the deadline is this Thursday..how i wish now am @ home jus like yesterday.

Geez..can but seems like no $$ coming in after tt..*lol*. K adieus - am going to pursue my work..hope I can last till night..

Body aChingG..

2005-06-01T11:16:00.000+08:00

I was on aft shift last night. I reached home almost 11pm. E twins r wide awake even though the symptoms to sleep were there. My darling fetched me at the SBW station with my twins...they r all smiles:). Mak stayed overnight to play with the twins. I kinda appreciate her presence though..sometimes it's lonely without elders around..hehheh maklum I ni anak bapa n darling pun dah sibuk2 nak jadi anak menantu bapa:P.

Eventually, we slept at midnight cos Adik kept on blabbering before she went to sleep. Nowadays, she wants mama n papa to sit beside her before she doze off. Kakak as per norm "shot" to sleep once she has her milk..hahhah.

This am came and it seems so many things to do. My body is aching..it seems that the panadol extend for muscle pain not effective. Not sure on my darling cos he also took it before went to sleep.

Ahhhh...I want a massage...maybe tonight ask my darling to massage my shoulders.Those shoulders aching always start when too much marking...haiz..

*Yawn* Still feel sleepy --never fails on me whenever i turn from aft to morning shift next day..better do my work before i fall asleep..tooddles..*grin*

Hanya sebuah coretan..

2005-05-31T16:24:00.000+08:00

Kehidupan ini penuh misteri.. Aku tak tahu apa yg akan terjadi sekarang ataupun akan datang. Susah untuk aku membuat pertimbangan untuk masa hadapan..

Kadangkala aku rasakan diri ini selalu sangat ingin menolong insan yg lain.. Hinggakan aku sendiri terpaksa menempuhi dugaan ini.. Syukran ..kerana Allah masih sayangi aku.. Memberiku suami yg baik ..anak2 yg comel..

Oleh itu, aku selalu bermohon "Ya Allah, tolonglah hambamu ini, jauhkan segalan bencana dan bahaya terhadap diri ku dan keluarga. Berikan petunjukMu kenana kau yg maha Mengetahui segalanya. Berikan aku kekuatan untuk tempuhi dugaan yg ku hadapi kerana hanya kau tahu apa yg aku lalui..Amin..amin ya rabbilalamin.

O.S.I.M

2005-05-30T09:43:00.000+08:00

This morning, I had funny sms from my dearest preggie fren-Siti. She said O.S.I.M-Oh Shit! It's Monday. It brought a smile on my face:)

Wish tt still having a weekend. Feeling bored --being bogged down by ese China scripts. Last Saturday, I was working half-day.Boring ..:S. What to do it's how TMC works!

ANyway, hubby and I went to Wisma @Orchard.Brought e twins to view the fishes. But it's a big mistake..it was so crowded due to GSS. Typical S'poreanas--so kiasu. It's as if there's no tomorrow...haiz..

But still, we went to Takashimaya to let e kids "explore" e place.hhahah.. From there, we proceed to Novena Square. The twins enjoy the water spurts from the fountain. We r back home by 630pm. I was so exhaused.

Yesterday, brought the twins to the playground. Eventually, they walked and ran across the whole Wellington area..hahah. By night, they r exhausted but still watch Barney..All of us have been "barneyrise"--keep singing barney songs..lol.

Lakaranku...

2005-05-27T13:02:00.000+08:00

Setiap kali ku terbangun dari jaga Perasaan resah menjelma... Keresahan datang dan pergi sepanjang hari. Hanya Allah yg mengetahui..

Tak ku tahu apa sebabnya.. Mungkin diri ini tidak terasa tenteram..

Ya Allah tolonglah hamba mu ini.. Berikan ketenangan jiwa..tawakal padamu Agar ku dapat menjadi seorang insan yg lebih fokus dan beriman.. InsyaAllah...

Today...

2005-05-26T10:49:00.000+08:00

Carrie Underwood won as American Idol! Geee...am not really a fan of hers but she really deserves it (applause for her!!!). Anyway, last night I was like half-stone watching the idol show. Then twins slept at 10pm. So I told hubby to go bed early so tt we can wake up fresh. It is so rare my twins slept early. Norm bedtime is midnight. Then @ 2am, adik climbed on the bed n hug me. Terkejut mama..then suddenly heard kakak's laughter. Alamak! Both woke up n want milk. SO gd daddy went to make milk (heee...tks dear:)).

Hubby continued to stay awake as he watched soccer match. The twins also joined him (Anak bapa katakan:p). I was on n off sleeping mode. I knew adik pushed the bathroom door hard as she wanted to change her diapers..smart kid..sayang adik:D. Kakak also changed her diapers too. Tks to bibik' help, they r cleaned n had next round of milk. Kakak went to sleep while milking. Adik stayed with papa until the match over n ensure tt papa sleep with her till papa go to work. Haiz...tt kid really now got new perangai..isk..isk..

And now, mama still feeling groggy due to "unsettled" sleep. Hubby got reservist training tonight- so come back late..sob..sob. Am bored when he's not around even the twins r there. I guess it's just not complete...

Dont't know why I dont feel like going to work these few days. I guess at work we r on marking period so less teaching classes. So feeling a bit slack..hahhah.TT's teachers' for us--got so many classes complaint--no class also complaint hahhah..

Luckily, I quickly finished my report e moment I step office. Now taking a break before moving to the next part of the work--set tutorial qtns for Nov exam. This is a backlog work. Geez..Niek going to chase after us soon hahah..Later aft, got to go EA dept n collect Xian exam scripts..sian :S. Hate China papers..students like crap when answering qtns...who cares..heeeeeeee;). Adieus............:D

Vesak holidays-Begin @ Sentosa..

2005-05-24T17:11:00.000+08:00

Hubby's company made a family day @ Sentosa. We were looking forward to it cos it's been so long since we actually went there. My twins woke up early morning to get ready. My dad gave us a ride till Outram MRT station for us to take free shuttle bus. By 1130am, we r there n collecting our goodies.

The twins had great time - playing foam and floaters. My dad n step mum joined us at 330pm.No rain @ Sentosa--goody:). My dad n hubby go n "tapau" 2 boxes full of mineral water. Plus a big plastic of apples...dont know what to say..typical S'porean hehehh..

By 630pm, we r home sweet home. It was raining heavily @ our home. So resting at e end of e day...

On Sun- we went to my secondary fren's wedding. Short and sweet stay over there. Senja area is really quite desserted even @ daytime. Then we took a cab to Anjang's place. My girls r beaming with joy playing with their aunties n uncles down there. They even take a short nap. Then as we abt to go home, Mak Hitam arrived. So we chat for few minutes n headed home as it is almost midnight. When we reach home, my twins still fresh n active. End up, we slept at 2am...What a tiring day!!

Final Monday- rest most of the hrs. After breakfast n played with the twins , me n hubby slept for few hrs n woke up watch Police Academy. Heee..tt show is hilarious ..really distress ourselves with laughs. E day was noted off by grocery shop at Giant SBW. My dad came over for dinner. E twins r so smart by making us slept together on their mattress. In the end, me n hubby got body ache..isk..isk...

Enjoyable ones those 3 days..wish e holidays extended till one week...hahh

What a T.G.I.F!

2005-05-20T10:22:00.000+08:00

Today is Friday..norm the day seek by most employers cos weekend is approachin. It's a long rest weekend for me too. But hubby on MC got sick and my cough return since last night. Really feel like dragging myself to work..wonder should i take half day urgent..hmmmmmmmmm...want to or not? C how is it later.. Now I feel groggy:S Oh no....me need to finish moderating if not dont meet deadline..oh no.. For now I feel like zzzzzzzzzzz..;)

Beginning..

2005-05-19T15:37:00.000+08:00

Gee...Am finally in this bloggie. Still feel like a "newborn" on this. It seems that this blog will be like a daily journal. SO any self expression of emotions pls do not take anything serios cos writing is a way to distress yourself - at least tt's what experts believe:) Anyway, public holidays are coming this weekend..right on...enjoy them.. We'll have no more public holidays till reach National Day...heeeeeee;)